Finally Done

I finally passed my last test today... I now have all the requirements to get licensed as an insurance agent. I have been going to class for the last week. It is very interesting. I have to say I think I am going to enjoy this career. I still have a lot to learn about being self employed but as far as the actual job goes, I think I'm ready. After I finish this blog I am going to register with the state and my license should be sent to me in the mail. By the end of the week I will be able to give quotes. Well here goes... sink or swim time. I've always enjoyed swimming.

sweet pictures

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Ultrasound day

I had this day marked on my calender for over 2 weeks. It was going to be one of the greatest days of my life. Today was the day I was going to see my baby's heart beat and get our 1st picture in the womb. We actually got to the doctors office a half hour early. We were so excited. Today we found out our baby's heart stopped beating. We met with our doctor on Nov. 17th and we had an ultrasound then and our baby measured at 6 weeks and 5 days. That day I got a glimpse at my baby's heart beat and today there wasn't one. Our baby stopped growing at 7 weeks and its little heart stopped beating sometime there after. We were instantly crushed. In my head I actually thought the doctor was joking with us and any second she was going to say "just joking." How silly is that? But that is what happened. I was in instant denial. A lot of people aren't ready for children when they have them. Many people don't want children for what ever reason. I know what challenges come with having a child. I know how selfless and patient one has to be. Believe me... I was ready to be a dad. It has always been a desire of mine. When I think of the future, I think of Magaly, myself and our children. There has never been any alternative to that. I think that it why I was instantly crushed. My future was coming to fruition and now its gone. We had a predicted due date and we picked out the baby's crib. Our excitement was built so high, everyone was so happy for us. It was going to be so great. I could picture future holidays. I could see our family days together, just the three of us and how much fun we would have. Its amazing the things you could imagine when you're so happy. Our baby was more than half way through the first trimester. It was almost in the clear. Only God knows what happened. I am not a much of an emotional man, and when I say that I mean I am not much of a cryer. But today was enough to shake the foundations of my tears, even if only for a moment. We will try again, just not any time soon. God knows the desires of our hearts. Today was supposed to be a happy day, but I guess we will have to wait a little longer. Keep us in your prayers.